A9 how cool!

So, I searched myself online today just to see what would turn up. Yippee, you say. Well, most of the time nothing turns up. But today, I tried searching on A9 because I want my Amazon discount. Anyway, the thing is I am now online thanks to Jake. On his official guest list for the Dec. Lan party, there I am. Of course I am lame, but I thought it was really interesting. When I tried to find something out about myself all I could see was that I am a guest at a party. Very Very Interesting. What is even better - I was sick and didn't end up going. I know - Riot, eh? So, I tried a few other key words and sure enough there was my blog. It is really really weird to think that only a few select people have access to my blog --- I mean who else would want to read it. It sucks. But there it is plain as day. I guess it is a good thing I don't have a job or I might be like the google guy and only work a week too.

Reality Hits.

Funny, how things are going along then BAM reality hits you right in the face. Ever wonder why that is? Are we always just living in a dream when we are happy? I once had this friend who I could tell everything. We never judged one another. We just talked and did lots of fun stuff together. We developed, what I thought, was a deep affection for each other. Yes, we were mainly just friends but we had something special. I guess we must have gotten too close - somehow crossed the line. Then BAM we were friends no more.

So, does this mean that we were never really friends in the first place? Does this mean it was all just a ruse? I have often wondered if people can really be true friends. You know, the kind of friends who will bail you out of jail even if they know you will never pay them back or friends that can just lie around looking at the stars not saying anything at all instead of going on a big date. I guess maybe guys have that kind of friendship. Okay, maybe 2 girls in the whole world. But it is a rare find to have a friend that accepts you for you and doesn't try to change you. One that likes who you are and knows you accept them for who they are. It really sucks when you think you have found a friend like that and then BAM REALITY HITS!